The Proposal

(This proposal is excerpt from my under construction second love story, after the Flower Girl:-) Hopefully you all will like it.)

"I love you. I love you very, very much darling. I look for you every time I hear your name. My eyes scrabble through the crowd looking for my favourite eyes. Your eyes. Every time you laugh aloud, I keep smiling like an unsatisfied child until someone interrupts. And every time you take your beautiful lock of hairs to gently tug it behind your ears, I so wish I could do it. Every single time for the rest of my life. You know the way you so angelically blush when your friends praise you I pray if only I could hold that moment & decorate it in my soul forever …I won’t make impossible promises but I just wanted you to know, that your love would be safe with me…no matter where you be…your love would be safe with me…For when like my dream fairy you so wonderfully wink my heart wants to jump & drink…through your eyes, all my life…And every time you so sweetly smile I become oblivious to everything, almost pleading Almighty that let me be the man who could hold your hands in life’s every mile… When you are mischievous & slightly bite your lips I take a long sigh, before in ecstasy my heart dips. You know love, there are times when I am lucky to see your cutest yawn & those days I find my soul in bliss till the next dawn, when you give me another reason to be happy. I don’t know how but the only time I do not think about you is when I am with you…for then I am incapable of thinking anything at all…I am just thankful my heart keeps beating, I know it for sure because sometimes its thumping is so loud that I have to pat it & say, calm down, its true, she’s standing right in front of you…I really don’t know when darling, but I have fallen for you in a way I am ready to rise for your love, our love in every life to follow…I know life is a hugely vague term, but if there’s one thing I am perfectly certain about in my life, it is I can never ever again feel the special way I feel for you…If I say for eternity I love You, will you my love say…I do…" ~ Abhik Choudhury, March 28th, 2010

Blessed Human

I am not god, I am blessed

I can feel that bliss of rain after waiting for diverse

seasons
I am not God who can have any season without

reasons
I can feel the magical power of healing after sustaining

limitless pain
I am not God who for any pain is too powerful…

too sane…
I am mortal, I know after going through thousands of moments I shall face death
I am not God who has to always go on & on & on, being ever immortal his fate
I can feel the selfless love of my parents, their sacrifices, their compromises…
I am not God, the divine Father of all…who without exception never falls, always rises…
I am human, I know the beauty of rising after many falls & defeats
I am not God who can always catch, to make you smile a close one’s sweet deceits
I am human, I can feel the incomprehensible satisfaction of earning hard earned bread
I am not God the creator of all, who to whenever take whatever He has made has no dread
I can’t explain the excitement of future unfolding itself slowly with every breath
I am not God, the author of every future who already knows about every opportunity & threat
I am human who knows & values the infinite power & peace of hope & pray…
I am not God who has only to fulfill, nothing to hope, no one to pray, the owner of night & day
I am a mortal, whose mind is always full of questions, & his life an incessant voyage of elucidation
I am not God, who has no questions, no queries, who’s naturally much beyond any emancipation
I am human who at every turn is in total awe of incredible cycles & eternal exquisiteness of universe
I am not God, who like a great poet is not at all amazed by the magnificence & glory of his own verse

I am not God, I am blessed…

~ Abhik Choudhury, July '09

The Wings of Colourful Reverie ~ Abhik Choudhury, Dec. '08

This is one of my glass paintings few years ago, which I had made for one of my sister Amruta Di's Birthday. While I was pondering on what to create, this bird came unto my mind because something about this imagination shouted aloud of pride, humble simplicity even in grandiosity, freedom, magical dreams & all the beautiful colours of life. I hope that you all will also be able to see those reflections when your lovely eyes stay with this Bird with wings of colourful reverie! Loads of Love - Abhik Choudhury

   

NEW SEGMENT: Song of the Fortnight ~ Din Dhal Jaye

This is one of my all time favourite song from the movie Guide which went on to become a classic. The melody in the song is impeccably rare. I heard this song for the first time three years ago & was totally submerged & lost in a surprisingly tranquil pathos. I still sometimes wish I should have heard it when I was a kid...I would have had more years to enjoy the blissful music, the soulful lyrics! Mohd. Rafi, S.D. Burman & Dev Anand at their tragic best! Go ahead...if you haven't heard it...trust...you will cherish it...forever:-) (P.S. Go full screen! Wink!!)

The Journey beyond time...

Personal thoughts via. Personal Diary

These are some of my own written thoughts & views I pondered, felt, glanced & perceived over the last three months. I hope my young growing philosophies & thinking especially about love, hope, optimism, & honour finds no frowns just smiles! God Bless you all always. Amen.

"If you actually can't help being pessimistic & have to doubt something or other always. Go ahead...doubt your fears..."~ Abhik Choudhury, March 3rd, 2010

"I have a problem, I can't run. People swiftly running by my side before going forward haughtily grin at me & at my peaceful pace. Just in their beautiful strides of superiority they miss the glimpse of my wings humbly hiding in my back..." ~ Abhik Choudhury, Feb 16th 2010

"At times when you are suppressed & not allowed to speak, don't whisper...SHOUT..." ~ Abhik Choudhury, Feb 6th 2010
                                                                                                                           "The sole reason I have known & understood for sadness, depression, fear & pain is only the loss of trust...be in on a person, dream, fascination or most importantly you…yourself. So trust & believe very cautiously & intelligently. And once you do have more faith on it than even your existence. Slowly your mortal soul will wash away all these weaknesses for immortality." ~ Abhik Choudhury, Jan 19th 2010

"The rhythmic sound of my teardrops loosens my heart and like soft love chime it touches my soul. Making every drop worth it, for it’s for you. For though you are the reason behind, it’s only your thoughts which will soothe my spirit & mind..." ~ Abhik Choudhury, 2nd Feb, 2010

"The best part about being betrayed is now you KNOW...the worst ironically is that u do everything so that u don't get to know what you now KNOW..." ~ Abhik Choudhury, 27th Jan 2010

"Irrespective of the relationship when you are loving, love as if you have nothing to loose. No barriers, no boundations, no doubts. For if you are not ready to gamble everything you have, you still have not actually learnt to love. Take the risk, it's worth it! On second thoughts, it’s the only single rule in the book of Love. Go Jump..." ~ Abhik Choudhury, 31st Jan 2010

"I really tried to stop missing you, thinking it is making me very vulnerable & weak. It was only when you came back, did I realize that how powerful you have actually made me..." ~ Abhik Choudhury, 11th Jan 2010

"I had so many inhibitions whenever someone tried to come close to me. In the fear of changing or loosing my own identity, I never opened up totally. Today I was very hurt & my heart & soul blossomed naturally like a flower. I was such a fool I realized, al this time I wasn't opening in the fear of loosing myself & now as I unintentionally did...for the first time I truly found myself..."~ Abhik Choudhury, 9th Jan 2010

"I just need two things to live in this universe. Love & Hope. If everything I have or ever had close to me, has one of the two, I can just say 'Coincidence' isn't the word. Almighty meant it this way. Now just by having these two things, I have everything." ~ Abhik Choudhury, 6th Jan 2010

“There’s just one special healing spirit which I can teach you from my experiences. If you are in pain, no matter what it is, how much it is & why it is, don’t look for happiness at that moment, satisfy yourself with the aching chimes…& finally in a spur you will realize it’s all in the time, with the time…nothing is what as it seems today…it’s all in the time, with the time…” Abhik Choudhury, January 2009

"Out of the thousand lessons from life, one of my personal favourites is that there is nothing in this universe called negativity, sadness & darkness...they are nothing but simply the absence of positivity, happiness & light. Don't switch off the tube light & you will never have a dark room in your life." ~ Abhik Choudhury Dec. '08

P.S. If any of my work anytime in your life makes you smile. Pass it selflessly. It doesn’t take much of an effort. Go to your loved ones & just appreciate whatever they might be doing then. You will instantly notice that radiant glow in their eyes & light touch of smile in their lips. The magnitude of internal self satisfaction & happiness you will be blessed with then, ironically will make ‘it’ the most selfish thing you did for yourself...make someone smile...God is a bit old fashioned & has still managed to be just! He always returns what you have had passed. Did I see a smile…:-) Loads of Love & Well Wishes, Abhik Choudhury, March 4th 2010

Special

Sometimes you can’t explain & clarify what you actually feel
Especially about relations made with effortless eternal zeal
How will you enlighten that infinite love & care...
Those pure emotions standing above any artificial layer


That one person with whom you want your every secret to share
That colossal faith that even if the world is against you that person will be there...
That ceaseless superfluous fright, of any probable future fight
And immediately that solace by heart, telling not to fear what will never see light...

That uncanny incomplete feeling, if without any contact, you even miss a day!
That firm belief that in your darkest of times that person will be your most shining ray
Those amazing touching moments together, which you never want to forget
Those times when you are understood without words & with joy your eyes do wet


That immense guilt even when you hide something very insignificant
That feeling that only to be together forever, God has specially made you both & sent
That regular loss for words, when you try & explain how special you are to each other
& No matter how much I endeavour I can’t elucidate the magic in our relation further

            So I shall seal with a small wish that may we always be together...

                                                                    ~ Abhik Choudhury, Jan '08